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I'm gonna give you some good advice, Brian Clough.

No matter how good you think you are or clever, how many fancy new friends you make on the telly, the reality of footballing life is this:
The chairman is the boss, then comes the directors, then the secretary, then the fans, then the players, and then finally the last of all, bottom of the heap, the lowest of the low, comes the one who in the end, we can all do without the Fuckin manager.

(Sam Longson to Brian Clough, The Damned United)

eh? hello people :D

gue udah bener-bener harus mulai nulis lagi. beneran deh. kelamaan ngeliatin blog orang yang kualitasnya sangat amat jauh lebih baik dari blog sampah gue ini bener2 membuat down *lebay*
i just dont know where to re-start.
and when.
hehehehedail

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If you love someone, ask him for nothing. Don’t hold him from his destiny. Don’t keep him from going off in search of his own answers. Don’t ask him for commitment. You will know commitment is real when it is something given willingly, and not as something obligatory. Don’t ask him for promises. If you are patient, if you have faith, you will know in your heart when the right time for promises has come. And when that time arrives, then you will see that you have both lost nothing by setting each other free, and have instead gained a richer, fuller life, a wealth of experiences, and a stronger certainty of your desires.

But should he not return to you, then life hasn’t cheated you because no promises were broken. Your bitterness will not last long, and you will feel thankful and blessed that at the very least, this beautiful soul has colored your life, that knowing him has already made life infinitely more meaningful.

By setting a person free, you run a risk of him not returning. But always remember that you found him beautiful precisely because he was free. People are like sunlight. You can feel their warmth, and their glow, but you can’t hold them in your hand and keep them with you forever. People choose to stay. But a choice is made more meaningful when it is made despite so many other options.

me como el director de ....

post secret.

Pillow talking stage.

Stayin up all night talking to that someone. Asking that what are you doing question every five minutes. Just hearin the other person breathe when it’s quiet. Playing 21 questions & sharing secrets. Ah, i miss that.

And even when you know you’re tired as hell, but you don’t want to get off the phone or messenger so you fall asleep hoping the other one falls asleep too — are you tired? do you want me to let you go? just lemme know & they reply nooo it’s okay, i’m not tired, but you can hear it in their voice or even see from the text character. Haha. Oh and especially when the word baby comes into play & you just automatically get those butterflies in your tummy when they call you that.

Hmm. I honestly think that’s the best part of a relationship ever — the start. Because you’re happy. There’s no fighting, just flat out happiness.

i found this in a site.

"karna anda tidak banyak mau maka saya juga tidak mau banyak"

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tangan ku kaku walau hatiku berkata iya
lidahku kelu waktu hatiku berkata setuju.

2010

football matches.
final exam.
master's degree.
boyfriend(s).

.........................

2009

Enero
MC 11 5B Photo shoot - black and white roses
"1st" as my first investigative journalism book
Done my first photo essay : The Jak
My 1st City and Guilds Int'l Examination
Football matches at Soemantri Brodjonegoro, Lebak Bulus and GBK stadium.
3rd term Final exams

Febrero
3rd term Final exams
Football matches at Lebak Bulus and GBK stadium
KRS
Valentine's day at the trip
Karawang's trip
Bandung's trip
25- First day i met Dana
Monas with Dana

Marzo
Lots of movies with Dana
Java Jazz-ing - Jason Mraz-ing (thank you Edo :)
My 4th term at LSPR
Nindia's birthday!!! feast part 1 :D
Relationship with Gatra Ardana
Bogor's trip
British Pantomime project

Abril
British Pantomime project
Nindia's birthday feast part 2 :D
Champions league semifinal weeks
Election day
introducing Seafood Ayu as the cheapest seafood eatery
English Pantomime TV and Radio interviews
4th term mid exams
Twitter!!

Mayo
4th term mid exams
Sea World
Triseka's ladies gathering
Depok's trip
British Pantomime project
Football matches at Pancake Parlour and Langsat
Got my first love letter
LSPR Fashion show nite
My 20th birthday Surprise :D
Finale de Champione : Barcelona
GS time :)
introducing Soyjoy as my new partner

Junio
Assignmentos
Culinary shoots
PRJ
Dying for Manchester United's Asia Tour tickets
Garuda di Dadaku as the best Indonesian movie i've ever seen
Pimento roof top for the first time
Attending Final round of Indonesia Open (thank you Nindia :)
Woman Trafficking Awareness day
Spen a day with my sister, Kinanthi
Anggun's meet and greet at The Ritz Carlton
Coronation of Mr and Mrs LSPR
Grand final LSPR Band Festival

Julio
Crazy Assigmentos
Final exams madness
1864 by George Orwell
Alif and Via hit the town
Aris' house - Depok
Viwawa and Wakawaka leisure
Jakarta Bombing
Met Mitchel
Bunda's birthday
Hello Blackberry!
My first Rpm class
Dufan


Agosto
Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix
fckn Strawberry cafe
Bandung's trip
Sari Ater kidnap
Jitec for mom's office anniversary
Java Rockin Land
KRS
Anyer's trip
Another Bogor's trip
Nesia and Danar Birthday feast
Entering Fasting month
1at year friendship anniversary with Nindia Satiman
Greg's farewel

Septiembre
My 5th term at LSPR, now am a Campus C's people
Jakarta earthquake!! Dang!!!
Breakfastings at blah blah blah with blah blah blah
Football matches - Lebak Bulus stadium
Indonesia's Sport Management with better Education seminar
Hello, i am the Director of Journey to the west theater!
New hair cut
Tesate for the first time
Daddy's birthday
Welcoming BPL
Happy Aid Mubarak
Finally met my beautiful sisters Reno, Uti, Ayu after years
New CDMA handset

Octubre
JTTW meetings
Bunda and Daddy's 22nd wedding anniversary feast
another football seminar
Hello, met me, am the new LSPR futsal's manager!
Futsal trainings
JTTW projects
Lenka's Concert
Welcoming Indonesia Super League
City and Guilds preparation class
again and again, Bogor's trip
Indovision as my new BPL's mate
Football match at GBK stadium

Noviembre
Mid exam weeks
JTTW project
Fikom UI cup at Bulungan
City and Guilds preaparation class
Football matches at GBK and Soemantri stadium
Happy Eid
Hello Bremer!

Diciembre
JTTW project
MC 11 5B Aidsolution's day
Football matches at Lebak Bulus and GBK stadium
City and Guilds preparation class
City and Guilds pre exam
Futsal trainings
hola De Hooi!
Happy mothers day
Beers lalala Cheers!
Makassar's diner with 25 and 12

i aint that lucky

That is the fact that i have to admit while everyone keep saying i am the lucky person. i cant deny now am so into someone, that is sweet but it became such a hard fact to accept when i didnt get same feeling from him. it's just to early to say that am in love although i almost forget how it feels; to be fallin in love and to be loved back. i ended my last relationship over 4 months ago, hmm, cant say thats a long time to feels so alone, but in a time like this, like now, i need someone to care from me. i need him to care for me.

whatever am gonna be someday,

i just want to see you happy and proud , Bunda. I love you.

My friends say i am strong.

i wish i could say this to them:
I am tired of trying, I am tired over crying, i know i am smiling but inside i am dyin!

maybe then they would realize i am just a good actress.

we gave it all we could, we gave it our best !!!

LSPR FUTSAL TEAM

Dear future children,

I promise to always be your best friend.
To go to every soccer game or dance recital.
I WILL BE THERE!
I'm going to give you everything I wish I had growing up.

Although it's goin to the left, it will always right.

There's always a darkness to bring you down and there's always a light to shine you up.
When you have no clue anymore, look into your heart, follow it.
That is what I learn, follow your heart,
that is more real than anything.

hello!!! :(

If i say something isn't wrong that means something is wrong. And if i say something is wrong that means everything is wrong. And if i say that i need a hug you better get your ass over there and give me a hug.

Underneath the moon
Underneath the stars
Here's a little heart
For you
Up above the world
Up above it all
Here's a hand to hold on to

But if i should break
If i should fall away
What am i to do
I need someone to take
A little of the weight
Or I'll fall through

You're just the one that I've been waiting for
I'll give you all that I have to give and more
But don't let me fall

Take a little time
Walk a little line
Got the balance right aha
Give a little love
Gimme just enough
So that i can hang on tight

We will be alright
I'll be by your side
I won't let you down
But i gotta know
No matter how things go
That you will be around

Entah.

Gue bisa gila kalo kayak gini. Mood swing melulu.

ini baru namanya Liga SUPER!

yea!! pheew! akhirnyaa, setelah sekian lama menunggu, last nite i watched a very gracious match between Persik and Bontang FC. I thought Persik can't do their deadly attack because their best striker, Ronald Fagundez has moved to Persisam.

Ternyataaa oh ternyataa!!!!

Persik really showed their best performance! Saktiawan Sinaga, Mahyadi Panggabean, Pato Morales, hmm they showed what a good succinctness is. Same as Persik did, Bontang FC juga bagus banget mainnya. Walaupun, keliatan banget sih kalo cuma Aldo Baretto yang bener-bener jadi ujung tombak, tapi lapangan tengah nya bagus bgt! Finally, they can pressed Persik to gave them one points :)

Beneran, menurut gue itu match bener2 seru bgt. Meskipun kata Abe pertandingan ini hampir menjurus ke Smack Down gara-gara mainnya pada kasar-kasar banget, tapi menurut gue itulah sisi uniknya liga lokal. hehehe.

And, oh, Bytheway, ABE promised me A BONTANG FC HOME JERSEY!! :D awwwww im so in love with their red-batik-jersey!!