Pillow talking stage.

Stayin up all night talking to that someone. Asking that what are you doing question every five minutes. Just hearin the other person breathe when it’s quiet. Playing 21 questions & sharing secrets. Ah, i miss that.

And even when you know you’re tired as hell, but you don’t want to get off the phone or messenger so you fall asleep hoping the other one falls asleep too — are you tired? do you want me to let you go? just lemme know & they reply nooo it’s okay, i’m not tired, but you can hear it in their voice or even see from the text character. Haha. Oh and especially when the word baby comes into play & you just automatically get those butterflies in your tummy when they call you that.

Hmm. I honestly think that’s the best part of a relationship ever — the start. Because you’re happy. There’s no fighting, just flat out happiness.

I blame myself.

It's like you don't care anymore,
it's like you never did ..
it's like i'm obsessed with you,
it's like you're tired ..
it's like i can't wait for you to get online,
it's like your waiting for me to leave.
it's like i can't live without you,
it's like you can live with me.
it's like i'm falling for you,
it's like you'll never catch me.
it's like the world tells me to give up.
it's like yo give me a reason not to.

I blame your eyes,
I blame the times you made me cry,
I blame the hopes you gave me,
I blame the silence you always brought,
I blame the time.
I blame your voice,
I blame your everything.

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I'm strong, but I break. I'm stubborn, and I make plenty of mistakes. Yeah, I'm hard, and life with me is never easy. I'm confusing as hell. I don't want to be tough, and I don't want to be proud. I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found, I'm not lost, I need to be loved. I just need to be loved.

Whats gonna happen to you?

What if Im a bad girl?
What if I dont love you?
What if, if I dont care about you?
What if I'm a player?
What if Im a hater?
What if I am not your friend?
What if I drink?
What if I smoke?
What if I hate you?

first day Fasting

wow. puasa lagi akhirnya.. hari ini nothing but 2M - Mager dan Matigaya! hahaha.
hupff, anyway, i've made the decision about the guyS. semoga ini jalan yang terbaik. amiinn..

ps: sumpah gue lagi KANGEN BGT ntn persija di GBK! :(

BYE BYE STRANGER!

Akkh! Fak. After 3weeks waiting to see you again, finally we meet today.
but, all you've done is nothing but ruined my mood!

Relationship that starts with the hottest love,

ends with the coldest one.

i'll be missing you my Baby summer romance (omG, i've missed you already!)

Tonight I feel I’m losing you,
And don’t know how to write this and confess everything.
In my dreams you live, In my dreams you make a mess,
And in my dreams only, I can be truly yours.
Tomorrow your tears will erase me from your life,
Like we never met,
We will be strangers forever,
Because love isn’t for us.

I'm not angry now,

I'm just saying that sometimes Goodbye is a second chance. :)

F!

TAAAIII LAAAHHH LOOO!!!

MANA KATANYA MAU BERUBAH! MANAAA? LO EMANG GA PERNAH MAU TAU PERASAAN GUE! LO EMANG GA PERNAH PIKIRIN! TAI!

SEKARANG GUE JUGA MAU BUAT APA AJA YANG GUE SUKA!!

Oh Baby, You're simply not my friend!

because friends don't look at each other like we do.

nggak jadi putus.

hupf. finally i told him that i need a break up.

gue pikir pas gue bilang gt dia bakal langsung bilang "Oke".
ternyata-teryata-ternyata
tidak demikian sodara2!

wew.

He's simply not you.

I used to believe in love, in forever, in magic, in happily ever after.. but BOOM you showed up, and showed me how forever is not what i thought it was.. and you showed me that magic is all about tricks.. showed me that happiness can be shattered with a word or two.

but for that, i want to thank you.. instead of letting me down.. you made me stronger, stronger than i ever thought i would be. Now i know who deserves my love, who deserves my magic, and who deserves my happily ever after :). He's simply not you.

bye bye it's just another chapter :)

Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see through my eyes
But then i won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i can't

I know
You don't really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

But now
I know you can't tell
I'm down,and I'm not down anyway
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

one thing that i need now its just a hug.

It's already 15th of jul, 12:05 am - i'm crying now.

oh,

I'm so tired of playing games. I'ts like same boy different name

Oh Dear,

U pick wrong person to play stupid with! You're TOO GOOD at it!
u've made your promise, and broke it yourself!
just wait for my turn yaa!!!

like i've said at first, DO NOT start with me, you WILL NOT win!!

pleasures.

i miss being with my boyfriend at sat nite anyway.

i need you and beer too.

gue sedih. gue akhir-akhir ini sering ngerasa kalo he's not so into me anymore. gue judi suka ngebayangin yang jelek-jelek. gue semakin sering berusaha untuk nggak lagi sayang yang 'sebegitunya' lagi. gue bingung. gue sedih. gue ngga ngerasa jadi diri gue sendiri lagi.

Monday, june 22 2009

Look for the one with the broken smile,
She needs someone to love her forever.
Hasn’t been out of the house for a while,
Her last lover is gone and back never.
Too scared to trust because love did crush,
Feels as though her heart is gone now.
Her life is empty without the love rush,
Tell her to give up the sad show and bow.
The only way her heart can ever heal,
Is by letting the flowers grow and bloom.
She takes the chance to let her cards deal,
With her big risk comes the sweetest perfume.

Flowers can not grow or bloom without sun.
Without love, happiness and trust don’t run.