2009

Enero
MC 11 5B Photo shoot - black and white roses
"1st" as my first investigative journalism book
Done my first photo essay : The Jak
My 1st City and Guilds Int'l Examination
Football matches at Soemantri Brodjonegoro, Lebak Bulus and GBK stadium.
3rd term Final exams

Febrero
3rd term Final exams
Football matches at Lebak Bulus and GBK stadium
KRS
Valentine's day at the trip
Karawang's trip
Bandung's trip
25- First day i met Dana
Monas with Dana

Marzo
Lots of movies with Dana
Java Jazz-ing - Jason Mraz-ing (thank you Edo :)
My 4th term at LSPR
Nindia's birthday!!! feast part 1 :D
Relationship with Gatra Ardana
Bogor's trip
British Pantomime project

Abril
British Pantomime project
Nindia's birthday feast part 2 :D
Champions league semifinal weeks
Election day
introducing Seafood Ayu as the cheapest seafood eatery
English Pantomime TV and Radio interviews
4th term mid exams
Twitter!!

Mayo
4th term mid exams
Sea World
Triseka's ladies gathering
Depok's trip
British Pantomime project
Football matches at Pancake Parlour and Langsat
Got my first love letter
LSPR Fashion show nite
My 20th birthday Surprise :D
Finale de Champione : Barcelona
GS time :)
introducing Soyjoy as my new partner

Junio
Assignmentos
Culinary shoots
PRJ
Dying for Manchester United's Asia Tour tickets
Garuda di Dadaku as the best Indonesian movie i've ever seen
Pimento roof top for the first time
Attending Final round of Indonesia Open (thank you Nindia :)
Woman Trafficking Awareness day
Spen a day with my sister, Kinanthi
Anggun's meet and greet at The Ritz Carlton
Coronation of Mr and Mrs LSPR
Grand final LSPR Band Festival

Julio
Crazy Assigmentos
Final exams madness
1864 by George Orwell
Alif and Via hit the town
Aris' house - Depok
Viwawa and Wakawaka leisure
Jakarta Bombing
Met Mitchel
Bunda's birthday
Hello Blackberry!
My first Rpm class
Dufan


Agosto
Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix
fckn Strawberry cafe
Bandung's trip
Sari Ater kidnap
Jitec for mom's office anniversary
Java Rockin Land
KRS
Anyer's trip
Another Bogor's trip
Nesia and Danar Birthday feast
Entering Fasting month
1at year friendship anniversary with Nindia Satiman
Greg's farewel

Septiembre
My 5th term at LSPR, now am a Campus C's people
Jakarta earthquake!! Dang!!!
Breakfastings at blah blah blah with blah blah blah
Football matches - Lebak Bulus stadium
Indonesia's Sport Management with better Education seminar
Hello, i am the Director of Journey to the west theater!
New hair cut
Tesate for the first time
Daddy's birthday
Welcoming BPL
Happy Aid Mubarak
Finally met my beautiful sisters Reno, Uti, Ayu after years
New CDMA handset

Octubre
JTTW meetings
Bunda and Daddy's 22nd wedding anniversary feast
another football seminar
Hello, met me, am the new LSPR futsal's manager!
Futsal trainings
JTTW projects
Lenka's Concert
Welcoming Indonesia Super League
City and Guilds preparation class
again and again, Bogor's trip
Indovision as my new BPL's mate
Football match at GBK stadium

Noviembre
Mid exam weeks
JTTW project
Fikom UI cup at Bulungan
City and Guilds preaparation class
Football matches at GBK and Soemantri stadium
Happy Eid
Hello Bremer!

Diciembre
JTTW project
MC 11 5B Aidsolution's day
Football matches at Lebak Bulus and GBK stadium
City and Guilds preparation class
City and Guilds pre exam
Futsal trainings
hola De Hooi!
Happy mothers day
Beers lalala Cheers!
Makassar's diner with 25 and 12

i aint that lucky

That is the fact that i have to admit while everyone keep saying i am the lucky person. i cant deny now am so into someone, that is sweet but it became such a hard fact to accept when i didnt get same feeling from him. it's just to early to say that am in love although i almost forget how it feels; to be fallin in love and to be loved back. i ended my last relationship over 4 months ago, hmm, cant say thats a long time to feels so alone, but in a time like this, like now, i need someone to care from me. i need him to care for me.

whatever am gonna be someday,

i just want to see you happy and proud , Bunda. I love you.

My friends say i am strong.

i wish i could say this to them:
I am tired of trying, I am tired over crying, i know i am smiling but inside i am dyin!

maybe then they would realize i am just a good actress.

we gave it all we could, we gave it our best !!!

LSPR FUTSAL TEAM

Dear future children,

I promise to always be your best friend.
To go to every soccer game or dance recital.
I WILL BE THERE!
I'm going to give you everything I wish I had growing up.

Although it's goin to the left, it will always right.

There's always a darkness to bring you down and there's always a light to shine you up.
When you have no clue anymore, look into your heart, follow it.
That is what I learn, follow your heart,
that is more real than anything.

hello!!! :(

If i say something isn't wrong that means something is wrong. And if i say something is wrong that means everything is wrong. And if i say that i need a hug you better get your ass over there and give me a hug.

Underneath the moon
Underneath the stars
Here's a little heart
For you
Up above the world
Up above it all
Here's a hand to hold on to

But if i should break
If i should fall away
What am i to do
I need someone to take
A little of the weight
Or I'll fall through

You're just the one that I've been waiting for
I'll give you all that I have to give and more
But don't let me fall

Take a little time
Walk a little line
Got the balance right aha
Give a little love
Gimme just enough
So that i can hang on tight

We will be alright
I'll be by your side
I won't let you down
But i gotta know
No matter how things go
That you will be around

Entah.

Gue bisa gila kalo kayak gini. Mood swing melulu.

ini baru namanya Liga SUPER!

yea!! pheew! akhirnyaa, setelah sekian lama menunggu, last nite i watched a very gracious match between Persik and Bontang FC. I thought Persik can't do their deadly attack because their best striker, Ronald Fagundez has moved to Persisam.

Ternyataaa oh ternyataa!!!!

Persik really showed their best performance! Saktiawan Sinaga, Mahyadi Panggabean, Pato Morales, hmm they showed what a good succinctness is. Same as Persik did, Bontang FC juga bagus banget mainnya. Walaupun, keliatan banget sih kalo cuma Aldo Baretto yang bener-bener jadi ujung tombak, tapi lapangan tengah nya bagus bgt! Finally, they can pressed Persik to gave them one points :)

Beneran, menurut gue itu match bener2 seru bgt. Meskipun kata Abe pertandingan ini hampir menjurus ke Smack Down gara-gara mainnya pada kasar-kasar banget, tapi menurut gue itulah sisi uniknya liga lokal. hehehe.

And, oh, Bytheway, ABE promised me A BONTANG FC HOME JERSEY!! :D awwwww im so in love with their red-batik-jersey!!

THE FOUR STAGES OF LIFE:

1) You believe in Santa Claus.

2) You don't believe in Santa Claus.

3) You are Santa Claus.

4) You look like Santa Claus.

Because Football is in my blood.

My current dream is about to visit every football stadium in Indonesia.

here are some of them :

1. Sijalak Harupat - Soreang, Bandung

2. Jaka Baring - Palembang

3. Palaran - Samarinda

4. Kanjuruhan - Malang

5. Gelora Bumi Kartini - Jepara

6. Manguwoharjo - Sleman

7. Manahan - Solo

8. Gajayana - Malang

9. Rumbai - Pekanbaru

10. Ratu Adil - Tarakan

11. Klabat - Manado

12. Mandala - Jayapura

13. Harapan Bangsa - Nanggroe Aceh Darussalam

14. Pendidikan - Wamena

15. Teladan - Medan

trash-y!

sedih deh liat blog gue makin hari makin nyampah. hah. sebenernya pengen mulai nulis tentang bola lagi.. tp tau deh, akhir2 ini gue cuma semangat nontonnya aja. dan sejak ada twitter, komen2 spontan yang biasanya gue tulis di blog setelah match nya selesai, sekarang langsung gue tulis di twitter. hiks.

pokonya ISL mulai, gue berniat mau posting disini lagi!!!

Happy belated Eid Mubarak :)

Oh Tuhan, udah H + sekian setelah lebaran, gue tidak menulis apapun tentang lebaran taun ini. zzz. terlalu terlena sama suasana hati yang uring2an. hehehe.
Happy belated Eid Mubarak :)

I blame myself.

It's like you don't care anymore,
it's like you never did ..
it's like i'm obsessed with you,
it's like you're tired ..
it's like i can't wait for you to get online,
it's like your waiting for me to leave.
it's like i can't live without you,
it's like you can live with me.
it's like i'm falling for you,
it's like you'll never catch me.
it's like the world tells me to give up.
it's like yo give me a reason not to.

I blame your eyes,
I blame the times you made me cry,
I blame the hopes you gave me,
I blame the silence you always brought,
I blame the time.
I blame your voice,
I blame your everything.

asdfghjkl

I'm strong, but I break. I'm stubborn, and I make plenty of mistakes. Yeah, I'm hard, and life with me is never easy. I'm confusing as hell. I don't want to be tough, and I don't want to be proud. I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found, I'm not lost, I need to be loved. I just need to be loved.

Whats gonna happen to you?

What if Im a bad girl?
What if I dont love you?
What if, if I dont care about you?
What if I'm a player?
What if Im a hater?
What if I am not your friend?
What if I drink?
What if I smoke?
What if I hate you?

Jakarta Earthquake!

woow. gila. sumpah gila. baru kali ini semuru hidup gue ngerasain gempa yang sebener-benernya gempa! serem. sumpah!

AUGUST 27

me and nindia first friendship anniversary :D

It's the times we're so crazy,
that people think we're high.
It's the times we laugh so hard,
we can't help but cry.
It's all the inside jokes
and "remember whens".
those are all the reasons
that we're best friends!

10maannn!! don't gooooo!!!!! :(

sumpah. sedih bgt tau greg mau pindah ke portugal. ga tau mau nulis apa. pokonya sedih.

first day Fasting

wow. puasa lagi akhirnya.. hari ini nothing but 2M - Mager dan Matigaya! hahaha.
hupff, anyway, i've made the decision about the guyS. semoga ini jalan yang terbaik. amiinn..

ps: sumpah gue lagi KANGEN BGT ntn persija di GBK! :(

August, day 11-20

Day 11 : KRS ! - GI JOE ing - Anyer's preparation (baca : belanja di Hero)
Day 12 : HOMEY
Day 13 : SHOPPING THERAPHY with Mom
Day 14 : ANYER
Day 15 : ANYER - jkt
Day 16 : Hema-ing
Day 17 : ROUNDing JKT
Day 18 : BOGOR TRIP
Day 19 : Danar's birthday BLAST
Day 20 : Airpot-ing

i'm missssssiingggg MC 11 5B sooo baaaddd
(still missing my HK too... hihihi)

MARBELLA 4458

Hyaaww!!! too much curhat makes me lupa to shared my happy anyer trip with geng senayan plus tara! hehe.

at august 14, finally we went to anyer! after a loooonggggg preparation! hahaha. udah dari beberapa bulan yang lalu edo ngemeng kalo doi ngidam liburan ke fantai. akhirnya kita mantai juga ya dooo!! hehe.

here are few pics from us :

cant wait for our next tripp!!!! hehehe

BYE BYE STRANGER!

Akkh! Fak. After 3weeks waiting to see you again, finally we meet today.
but, all you've done is nothing but ruined my mood!

life isnt easy.

love hurts. boys lie.
friends stab. people die.
parents yell.

i always try.
i'm never good enough.
and i don`t know why.

Relationship that starts with the hottest love,

ends with the coldest one.

This is my current desktop and BB's background.

Apapun itu.. Anita, i'll be here for you.

had a short text message conversation with anita, hupfff, made me realized how beautiful our friendship is.

She told me that starting from this sept, she will go for night class due to her new morning job. Shait, i was really shocked. ga kebayang, kita bakal pisah kelas. oh no, bahkan bukan hanya pisah kelas - tapi pindah jam kuliah, beda SETENGAH hari, i'm on the am time and she's on pm. wtf??. For a year we've been together, tiba2 harus pisah mendadak - padahal harusnya masih ada dua taun lagi kita barengan sekelas. Fak?! sumpah gue kaget.

Actually, bukan itu doang yang bikin gue sedih dan berniat buat ngeblog malem2 gini. There's another conversation with her that i can't write here. *sigh...*



aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..........
sumpah gue pengen nangis.

August, day 1 - 10

day 1 : BEATFEST - WOLFGANG AMAEDEUS PHOENIX
day 2 : HOMEEEY
day 3 : UP movies then STRAWBERRY F*ing Cafe
day 4 : HOMEEEY
day 5 : BANDUNG day
day 6 : BANDUNG day - back to Senayan
day 7 : Ampera Resto then GBK SENAYAN
day 8 : JITEC ManggaDua
day 9 :JAVA ROCKIN LAND
day 10 : Nindi's house then Seafood AYU

mana hongkongnya??? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

PROMDET!

Thank you Hatta! you finally make my day and swings my mood Up!
cant wait for tomorrow!!!!!!

i'll be missing you my Baby summer romance (omG, i've missed you already!)

Tonight I feel I’m losing you,
And don’t know how to write this and confess everything.
In my dreams you live, In my dreams you make a mess,
And in my dreams only, I can be truly yours.
Tomorrow your tears will erase me from your life,
Like we never met,
We will be strangers forever,
Because love isn’t for us.

I'm not angry now,

I'm just saying that sometimes Goodbye is a second chance. :)

F!

TAAAIII LAAAHHH LOOO!!!

MANA KATANYA MAU BERUBAH! MANAAA? LO EMANG GA PERNAH MAU TAU PERASAAN GUE! LO EMANG GA PERNAH PIKIRIN! TAI!

SEKARANG GUE JUGA MAU BUAT APA AJA YANG GUE SUKA!!

Oh Baby, You're simply not my friend!

because friends don't look at each other like we do.

whole package!

nggak jadi putus.

hupf. finally i told him that i need a break up.

gue pikir pas gue bilang gt dia bakal langsung bilang "Oke".
ternyata-teryata-ternyata
tidak demikian sodara2!

wew.

He's simply not you.

I used to believe in love, in forever, in magic, in happily ever after.. but BOOM you showed up, and showed me how forever is not what i thought it was.. and you showed me that magic is all about tricks.. showed me that happiness can be shattered with a word or two.

but for that, i want to thank you.. instead of letting me down.. you made me stronger, stronger than i ever thought i would be. Now i know who deserves my love, who deserves my magic, and who deserves my happily ever after :). He's simply not you.

bye bye it's just another chapter :)

Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see through my eyes
But then i won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i can't

I know
You don't really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

But now
I know you can't tell
I'm down,and I'm not down anyway
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, someday

one thing that i need now its just a hug.

It's already 15th of jul, 12:05 am - i'm crying now.

oh,

I'm so tired of playing games. I'ts like same boy different name

Oh Dear,

U pick wrong person to play stupid with! You're TOO GOOD at it!
u've made your promise, and broke it yourself!
just wait for my turn yaa!!!

like i've said at first, DO NOT start with me, you WILL NOT win!!

oopps! here it goes.. my Brain stopped!

hey it's almost midnight but i still enjoying my time to STUDYING my beloved PROFESSIONAL STUDIES papers for monday's exam. aduh, tiba-tiba kangen sama pacar deh. ditelfonin gak bisa-bisa. Well, kangen is a thing that will come everytime they want to, meskipun baru ketemu kemaren, ya kalo lagi kangen ya kangen aja.

Things that i missed a lot from him :
- kissssssseeess
- huggggsssssss
- i love you words
- i hate you words
- i miss you words

aduh ini mau nulis apa sih ceritanya? gak jelass deee... zzzz

ASSIGNMENTS BIADAB!

A bus station is where a bus stops.
A train staion is where a train stops.
On my desk, i have a work station.

pleasures.

i miss being with my boyfriend at sat nite anyway.

wednesday morning always come too soon.

i'm not a perfect girl. my hair doesn't always stay in place & sometimes i have a broken heart. my friends and i sometimes fight, my dad and i always walk in a different ways, my dearest boyfriend sometimes act like shit (hey, i do too :) )
maybe somedays nothing goes right, but when i think about it and take a step back i just remember how amazing life is and that maybe i like being imperfect.

i need you and beer too.

gue sedih. gue akhir-akhir ini sering ngerasa kalo he's not so into me anymore. gue judi suka ngebayangin yang jelek-jelek. gue semakin sering berusaha untuk nggak lagi sayang yang 'sebegitunya' lagi. gue bingung. gue sedih. gue ngga ngerasa jadi diri gue sendiri lagi.

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Monday, june 22 2009

Look for the one with the broken smile,
She needs someone to love her forever.
Hasn’t been out of the house for a while,
Her last lover is gone and back never.
Too scared to trust because love did crush,
Feels as though her heart is gone now.
Her life is empty without the love rush,
Tell her to give up the sad show and bow.
The only way her heart can ever heal,
Is by letting the flowers grow and bloom.
She takes the chance to let her cards deal,
With her big risk comes the sweetest perfume.

Flowers can not grow or bloom without sun.
Without love, happiness and trust don’t run.

kangen :'(

tomorrow will still come, wont it?

facts I'm facing now :

1.lost assignments are waiting for me to be touch,
2.my chair is too comfy for me to do the Internets things - not to do the assignments thingy.

3.final exams will be held in next couple weeks,
4.my file is still that blank. with no notes about any subjects notes. BLANK. yes. it is.

5.i think i need new boyfriend,
6.my old is being sucks.

but, I'm happy anyways. :(

hmm, ok, i will do 'lebih pengertian' in my own way.

As Alif said,
"Jadi diri sendiri aja Gotch, gak perlu berubah. Cuma harus sedikit lebih pengetian aja".

This kinda friendship is so cute!

Winnie : Piglet?
Piglet : Yes Winnie
Winnie: Nothin i was jus checkin.

Winnie The Pooh

Sometimes what you want isn't always what you get,

but in the end of what you get is so much better than what you wanted.

i'm desperately missing you yellow chairs :(

BFF (Beautiful Friends Forever)

Although Oby said we're not that Cool in making assignments together, WE'RE STILL THAT COOL in photo section! hehehehe

In my future, i'll miss your presence.

I miss the time when i still stand with my dreams.
I miss to see you there, in my dreams.

:(

Don't ever say anything is out of your reach, Neil Armstrong landed on the moon didn't he?

Do whatever you want without regret, the only time you'll really regret it is when your looking back saying I wish I had. Love whoever you want not who everyone wants you too, true love comes unexpectedly. Live your life now because you may never get another chance, be who you want to be stand out from the posers and losers so that when someone hears your name they know exactly who you are right away!

As long as the Prize does exist.

It's ok to take a risk once in awhile as they say "you at least have to buy a ticket to win the prize "
It made me realize that there can be a happy ending even though it happens so rarely these days .

Dont ever put too much hope on someone

even if he's the one that you love and trust :(

FOREVER FRIENDSHIP

Sometimes in life, i find a special friend. Someone who changes my life just by being part of it. Someone who makes me laugh until you can't stop. Someone who makes me believe that there really is good in the world. Someone who convinces me that there really is an unlocked door just waiting for me to open it.
This a forever friendship. When I'm down and the world seems dark and empty, my forever friend lifts me up in spirit and makes that dark and empty world suddenly seem bright and full. My forever friend gets me through the hard times, the sad times and the confused times. If i turn and walk away, my forever friend follows. If i lose my way, my forever friend guides me and cheers me on. My forever friend hold my hand and tells me that everything is going to be okay.

And i have found that kind of friendship, i feel happy and complete because i need not worry. I have a forever friends, and forever has no end.

I love you all really like i cant believe it :)

i'm so happy like i cant believe it!

Ola! hoaaahhh..after spending my day for SLEEPING, akhirnya sekarang baru bener2 bisa melek buat nulis, hehehe. mmmpphhh,

At may 27th 11pm, i got a insanely-made-me-happy birthday SURPRISE from my lovely boyfriend and my besties babies :). Wooooowwwwwwwwwwww, i realy shocked like i cant believe it until now! all my guys are being together to surprising me :D

and the best part is when my fashionably beautiful bestie Nindia Satiman appeared and give me a BIRTHDAY LETER and present too.. because i think she wouldt come, facing the fact that she would have a final exam at the next day. I LOVE YOU MENGCHI:)

Anind and Danar and Hatta appearanced was also make me shocked too, i realy have no idea why they both with nindia, and my LSPR mates (Dhita,tiwi,apok and the others) and my bf could arrange a sweet surprise like that :)

Thak you Allah, I am really blessed to have them in my life:)

Twenty is mine now

Dream what i want to dream, go where i want to go, be what i want to be. I have only one life and one chance to do all the things i want to do.

who cares if that not what i need!

Tomorrow it's my turn to being 20. I dont feel any special on that. My life still rounding the same. Same old shit different year. I still hate my life. And i still always dont get what i want.

Lucky me i just have one class session every wednesday.

I've just done my beautiful lunch at senayan city with Danar :)
hey, i've missed him tooo baad, heading the fact that he was so busy with the theatre, i didnt see him around for about THREE WEEKS. it feels like months due to the fact that i meet him everyday, before.

I'm so that glad we can share our missed moments today. He told me everythings that happend with his life during those weeks and i shared mine too.

The things that made me more happy is the fact that HE STILL THE OLD DANAR :)
He's still the one that loves KFC more that a plate of fucking salad
he's still the one that saving money for my birthday present :')
he's still the one who loves me and my bunda
he's still the one that laughing loud when im telling my fucking-CRISPY jokes
he's still the one that knows me better than anyone.